[The words ring familiar in her head, but this time, they're not delivered with a calm confidence, but snarled out, shaking with the effort it takes to constrain the rage. She keeps the chain taut in her off-hand as she rears back with the knife, her eyes meeting his in a moment of triumphant satisfaction-
-She feels him lifting her off the floor of the cell, her body leaden and limp from the chi-blocking, and as he settles her into the chair there's something almost gentle in his touch-
She hesitates for a moment.
-The moth-wasps are overwhelming them, and she could drive them away easily, but she's trapped in the ice. He won't see reason. She tries another approach- the appeal to family. To trust. Something in his eyes softens. The sentimental fool frees her-
No.
-She doesn't even think about the blanket that's covering her as she awakens, her mind too preoccupied with the intrusive visions of her mother... a blanket that wasn't there when she slept, that could only have been placed there by- but then she realizes the letter is gone- -She barely even remembers what she was speaking of in her madness, but it doesn't matter, her impairment allowed him to best her and he has her over the cliff, all he has to do is let her go and gravity will do the rest, but he doesn't- the rage slips away from his eyes again, and he gently sets her back on her feet-
Stop it. Stop it, Azula.
-"But one fact never changes. No matter what, you're still my sister."- -She doesn't know where she's going, nothing makes sense, she just needs to run, but the useless, sentimental fool won't stop chasing her down, asking her- begging her- to come back.- -"Let me help you. I want to help you."
Her lip trembles. Ignore it. Why is her vision blurring, why was she so- ignore it. Finish it, Azula. Now.
The flame dagger vanishes, and the chain slips from her trembling hand.]
[ Zuko is too tight in her grasp, held close by the chain, to keep himself from becoming a human punching bag. It's not his sister's usual style. It's far more aggressive and unhinged — and if he's operating under the right theory, that this place was conjured because the dreamers' mental states are in such throes in their waking lives that it thrust them into a deeper dimension of the psyche, into the Spirit Realm, or something like this... then that would make sense, given the last time he saw her before they both went their separate ways to rest after their battle, that Azula would be this far gone in her dreams. She's more unhinged now than she was in their Agni Kai, beating up on him outright, unrestrained. Watching her wailing, chained to the grate... breathing blue fire, sobbing in anguish...
Being that he's presently being pummeled, his mind isn't quite so cogent and clear as all that, but in the back of his mind, later, in hindsight, when he's resting from this battle even in his dreams, all those dots will connect for him. For now, he has far less sympathy or concern for the woman pinning him down, whipping out a flaming dagger to possibly end him, once and for all... Would he die in real life if he dies in their dreams? Basic human instinct is to stay alive, all philosophical quandaries aside. He's about to muster all his force to free himself, as he sees her raise the dagger, but then she stops — she looks as if she's about to cry — and releases him. It gives him pause, confusion coming into his eyes, a new look of fear and ire on his surely battered face. She's still unhinged — feeling fragile. It's unlike Azula. Unlike Azula to show mercy. Unlike Azula to hesitate...
...Oh, well. That emotional pause of his own is over, before Zuko abruptly launches himself to his feet again, moving quickly and defensively to make distance between them. In his conflicted confusion, though, he stays — he stands and faces her still. He silently stares her down with resentment and hyper-caution in his eyes, his gaze somehow both searing hot and icy cold, as if watching for the slightest twitch of her muscles. At the ready. He knows he can't predict Azula's next move — not that he ever really can, but especially not now, apparently... ]
Was it mother? Was she still in her head, after all this time, compromising her thoughts and weakening her mind with madness? Why did-
As soon as the chain loosens, as soon as he leaps to his feet and backs away, some part of her mind screams in alarm. Stop him. You can still finish this. Stop him.
But she doesn't. She can't. She can barely even move for several moments- not long, but more than enough time for him to take advantage of her distraction- but he doesn't. He moves away, gets space. Wise. What is wrong with her? She's letting him run-
...but he doesn't do that either. He just gets enough distance to escape her and waits, glaring at her with that familiar loathing. What- what does he want from her? And why can't she finish him off?
"I want to help you!"
Lies. All of it. That look on his face, the hate, the fear, that's the truth. She knows it. And she prefers it to pity anyway.
She holds her defensive posture for a few moments, hands shaking- another humiliating display of weakness, just like the tears she can't stop from gathering in her eyes, just like the shaky breathing that she can't seem to contain.
Weak.
It occurs to her that she could reclaim the advantage still. Catch him off-guard. Grab the chain again. Somehow, the thought just makes her tired.]
Well? What are you waiting for?
[Her voice can't quite muster the mocking tone or even the bite of challenge that she wants. It comes out shaky, uneven, emotional. It comes out pathetic. She finally averts her gaze, if only to hide her expression, her unacceptable loss of self-control.]
[ He stares her down a moment longer, his harsh gaze softening with concern, confusion, caution— no, confusion— no, concern... His ribs hurt, his face hurts, he's surely bruised and bloodied, still holding his own defensive posture — and yet... he finds himself worried about Azula. How is that? He can take a beating like no one's business and he knows it; she knows it. But even if he's certain his life was about to flash before him, knew that Azula seriously had weighed the option of killing him in that moment and erred on that side — it wasn't the first time, nor would it be the last, probably, that she'd threatened to kill him... and then didn't. It doesn't even necessarily register as her "changing her mind," usually, what's more — for all the times they've fought, almost killed each other, tried to kill each other, they never did, and that was almost... concrete. That was their normal, by this point. That's how they play now. "What? No lightning today? Afraid I'll redirect it?" "I'm about to celebrate becoming an only child!" Bickering — like brother and sister. Bantering in battle.
But this, this was different. She clearly changed her mind. She wasn't playing. This was the first time Azula had threatened to kill him, almost did, could have, spared him, and then... cried. Or something like it. She's shaking. Her voice is wavering. She won't even meet his eye. His own breathing is shaky for the pain he's in, but he keeps his breaths steady, and his eyes on Azula. He keeps his stance rooted, his wits about him, but he lets up on his defensive pose, standing tall with shoulders squared instead. He doesn't run. Nor does he attack her. He takes half a step forward — of course still staying at a considerable distance, but all the same, half a step toward her. ]
...We don't need to keep doing this, Azula. It's over.
[ The war, he means. The revolution. Their fight. From his standpoint, that must be abundantly clear — plainly assuming they're from the same moment in time, as one would... But still, there's something slightly less than familiar about her — something different, changed, but "older" isn't where his mind goes. Something's wrong with his sister. That's all he knows for sure. And that alone is enough to justify not running, not fighting back, nor surrendering. ]
She stares at him again, all thought of hiding her shame forgotten, and the look in his eyes-
What did that mean? What was he trying to- Why? Why would he- she'd just- he was still-
"No matter what, you're still my sister."
She clenches her eyes shut, trying to shut out the memory-
"Shut up!"]
"Shut up!"
[...The familiarity of the moment just makes the memory even more intense. The same look of concern in his eyes. The same- "I can help you." meaningless- "I want to help you!" LIES.]
[ His tone is jagged, trepidatious, but there's still that hint of worry in his gaze. He shifts slightly away, taking another step back as if to walk away, ready to leave as he's told to... but then changes his mind, too, and turns round again for a final characteristic parting comment, half-turned to her still. ]
...I don't want to have to fight you in my dreams, too. What's the point?
[ His voice falls on his ear rather hollow, hearing himself ask that. What's the point? Even in waking life — is there even a point anymore? It's over. They don't need to keep doing this. ]
I know. But I know I chose right. Now it's your choice.
[ Oh, come off it — but he needs the bite of bravado. He can't resist. Pithy as it is, he says it with all the earnestness he can muster through his battered ribs and shoulders, as he turns his back to her fully. Whether that's an act of trust or an act of gall, who can say. However it makes her feel, he's not gonna stick around to find out. She may have spared his life, but she changed her mind once already, so what's stopping her from changing it again? Now or later. She wants him gone in some capacity — she made that much clear. So he'll go. Avoid her like the plague after this, yeah, and go freak out quietly about how to handle this nightmarish development, sure. But he'll at least still speak his truth on the way out. He can't not anymore. ]
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[The words ring familiar in her head, but this time, they're not delivered with a calm confidence, but snarled out, shaking with the effort it takes to constrain the rage. She keeps the chain taut in her off-hand as she rears back with the knife, her eyes meeting his in a moment of triumphant satisfaction-
-She feels him lifting her off the floor of the cell, her body leaden and limp from the chi-blocking, and as he settles her into the chair there's something almost gentle in his touch-
She hesitates for a moment.
-The moth-wasps are overwhelming them, and she could drive them away easily, but she's trapped in the ice. He won't see reason. She tries another approach- the appeal to family. To trust. Something in his eyes softens. The sentimental fool frees her-
No.
-She doesn't even think about the blanket that's covering her as she awakens, her mind too preoccupied with the intrusive visions of her mother... a blanket that wasn't there when she slept, that could only have been placed there by- but then she realizes the letter is gone-
-She barely even remembers what she was speaking of in her madness, but it doesn't matter, her impairment allowed him to best her and he has her over the cliff, all he has to do is let her go and gravity will do the rest, but he doesn't- the rage slips away from his eyes again, and he gently sets her back on her feet-
Stop it. Stop it, Azula.
-"But one fact never changes. No matter what, you're still my sister."-
-She doesn't know where she's going, nothing makes sense, she just needs to run, but the useless, sentimental fool won't stop chasing her down, asking her- begging her- to come back.-
-"Let me help you. I want to help you."
Her lip trembles. Ignore it. Why is her vision blurring, why was she so- ignore it. Finish it, Azula. Now.
The flame dagger vanishes, and the chain slips from her trembling hand.]
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Being that he's presently being pummeled, his mind isn't quite so cogent and clear as all that, but in the back of his mind, later, in hindsight, when he's resting from this battle even in his dreams, all those dots will connect for him. For now, he has far less sympathy or concern for the woman pinning him down, whipping out a flaming dagger to possibly end him, once and for all... Would he die in real life if he dies in their dreams? Basic human instinct is to stay alive, all philosophical quandaries aside. He's about to muster all his force to free himself, as he sees her raise the dagger, but then she stops — she looks as if she's about to cry — and releases him. It gives him pause, confusion coming into his eyes, a new look of fear and ire on his surely battered face. She's still unhinged — feeling fragile. It's unlike Azula. Unlike Azula to show mercy. Unlike Azula to hesitate...
...Oh, well. That emotional pause of his own is over, before Zuko abruptly launches himself to his feet again, moving quickly and defensively to make distance between them. In his conflicted confusion, though, he stays — he stands and faces her still. He silently stares her down with resentment and hyper-caution in his eyes, his gaze somehow both searing hot and icy cold, as if watching for the slightest twitch of her muscles. At the ready. He knows he can't predict Azula's next move — not that he ever really can, but especially not now, apparently... ]
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Was it mother? Was she still in her head, after all this time, compromising her thoughts and weakening her mind with madness? Why did-
As soon as the chain loosens, as soon as he leaps to his feet and backs away, some part of her mind screams in alarm. Stop him. You can still finish this. Stop him.
But she doesn't. She can't. She can barely even move for several moments- not long, but more than enough time for him to take advantage of her distraction- but he doesn't. He moves away, gets space. Wise. What is wrong with her? She's letting him run-
...but he doesn't do that either. He just gets enough distance to escape her and waits, glaring at her with that familiar loathing. What- what does he want from her? And why can't she finish him off?
"I want to help you!"
Lies. All of it. That look on his face, the hate, the fear, that's the truth. She knows it. And she prefers it to pity anyway.
She holds her defensive posture for a few moments, hands shaking- another humiliating display of weakness, just like the tears she can't stop from gathering in her eyes, just like the shaky breathing that she can't seem to contain.
Weak.
It occurs to her that she could reclaim the advantage still. Catch him off-guard. Grab the chain again. Somehow, the thought just makes her tired.]
Well? What are you waiting for?
[Her voice can't quite muster the mocking tone or even the bite of challenge that she wants. It comes out shaky, uneven, emotional. It comes out pathetic. She finally averts her gaze, if only to hide her expression, her unacceptable loss of self-control.]
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But this, this was different. She clearly changed her mind. She wasn't playing. This was the first time Azula had threatened to kill him, almost did, could have, spared him, and then... cried. Or something like it. She's shaking. Her voice is wavering. She won't even meet his eye. His own breathing is shaky for the pain he's in, but he keeps his breaths steady, and his eyes on Azula. He keeps his stance rooted, his wits about him, but he lets up on his defensive pose, standing tall with shoulders squared instead. He doesn't run. Nor does he attack her. He takes half a step forward — of course still staying at a considerable distance, but all the same, half a step toward her. ]
...We don't need to keep doing this, Azula. It's over.
[ The war, he means. The revolution. Their fight. From his standpoint, that must be abundantly clear — plainly assuming they're from the same moment in time, as one would... But still, there's something slightly less than familiar about her — something different, changed, but "older" isn't where his mind goes. Something's wrong with his sister. That's all he knows for sure. And that alone is enough to justify not running, not fighting back, nor surrendering. ]
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She stares at him again, all thought of hiding her shame forgotten, and the look in his eyes-
What did that mean? What was he trying to- Why? Why would he- she'd just- he was still-
"No matter what, you're still my sister."
She clenches her eyes shut, trying to shut out the memory-
"Shut up!"]
"Shut up!"
[...The familiarity of the moment just makes the memory even more intense. The same look of concern in his eyes. The same- "I can help you." meaningless- "I want to help you!" LIES.]
"If it's over, then why are you still here?"
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[ His tone is jagged, trepidatious, but there's still that hint of worry in his gaze. He shifts slightly away, taking another step back as if to walk away, ready to leave as he's told to... but then changes his mind, too, and turns round again for a final characteristic parting comment, half-turned to her still. ]
...I don't want to have to fight you in my dreams, too. What's the point?
[ His voice falls on his ear rather hollow, hearing himself ask that. What's the point? Even in waking life — is there even a point anymore? It's over. They don't need to keep doing this. ]
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And then he stops again. And says that-
There's a spike of rage, a spike of... something else. Something deeper. Something she couldn't name. Without even thinking, she spits-]
You're the one that turned against us. You chose this.
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[ Oh, come off it — but he needs the bite of bravado. He can't resist. Pithy as it is, he says it with all the earnestness he can muster through his battered ribs and shoulders, as he turns his back to her fully. Whether that's an act of trust or an act of gall, who can say. However it makes her feel, he's not gonna stick around to find out. She may have spared his life, but she changed her mind once already, so what's stopping her from changing it again? Now or later. She wants him gone in some capacity — she made that much clear. So he'll go. Avoid her like the plague after this, yeah, and go freak out quietly about how to handle this nightmarish development, sure. But he'll at least still speak his truth on the way out. He can't not anymore. ]