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Azula ([personal profile] itstillhurt) wrote2022-11-21 01:49 am

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Do not waste my time. It is more valuable to me than you are.
rediscovering: (in the shadow of your heart)

[personal profile] rediscovering 2023-04-17 05:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Zuko is too tight in her grasp, held close by the chain, to keep himself from becoming a human punching bag. It's not his sister's usual style. It's far more aggressive and unhinged — and if he's operating under the right theory, that this place was conjured because the dreamers' mental states are in such throes in their waking lives that it thrust them into a deeper dimension of the psyche, into the Spirit Realm, or something like this... then that would make sense, given the last time he saw her before they both went their separate ways to rest after their battle, that Azula would be this far gone in her dreams. She's more unhinged now than she was in their Agni Kai, beating up on him outright, unrestrained. Watching her wailing, chained to the grate... breathing blue fire, sobbing in anguish...

Being that he's presently being pummeled, his mind isn't quite so cogent and clear as all that, but in the back of his mind, later, in hindsight, when he's resting from this battle even in his dreams, all those dots will connect for him. For now, he has far less sympathy or concern for the woman pinning him down, whipping out a flaming dagger to possibly end him, once and for all... Would he die in real life if he dies in their dreams? Basic human instinct is to stay alive, all philosophical quandaries aside. He's about to muster all his force to free himself, as he sees her raise the dagger, but then she stops — she looks as if she's about to cry — and releases him. It gives him pause, confusion coming into his eyes, a new look of fear and ire on his surely battered face. She's still unhinged — feeling fragile. It's unlike Azula. Unlike Azula to show mercy. Unlike Azula to hesitate...

...Oh, well. That emotional pause of his own is over, before Zuko abruptly launches himself to his feet again, moving quickly and defensively to make distance between them. In his conflicted confusion, though, he stays — he stands and faces her still. He silently stares her down with resentment and hyper-caution in his eyes, his gaze somehow both searing hot and icy cold, as if watching for the slightest twitch of her muscles. At the ready. He knows he can't predict Azula's next move — not that he ever really can, but especially not now, apparently... ]
rediscovering: (facing fire)

[personal profile] rediscovering 2023-05-24 07:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ He stares her down a moment longer, his harsh gaze softening with concern, confusion, caution— no, confusion— no, concern... His ribs hurt, his face hurts, he's surely bruised and bloodied, still holding his own defensive posture — and yet... he finds himself worried about Azula. How is that? He can take a beating like no one's business and he knows it; she knows it. But even if he's certain his life was about to flash before him, knew that Azula seriously had weighed the option of killing him in that moment and erred on that side — it wasn't the first time, nor would it be the last, probably, that she'd threatened to kill him... and then didn't. It doesn't even necessarily register as her "changing her mind," usually, what's more — for all the times they've fought, almost killed each other, tried to kill each other, they never did, and that was almost... concrete. That was their normal, by this point. That's how they play now. "What? No lightning today? Afraid I'll redirect it?" "I'm about to celebrate becoming an only child!" Bickering — like brother and sister. Bantering in battle.

But this, this was different. She clearly changed her mind. She wasn't playing. This was the first time Azula had threatened to kill him, almost did, could have, spared him, and then... cried. Or something like it. She's shaking. Her voice is wavering. She won't even meet his eye. His own breathing is shaky for the pain he's in, but he keeps his breaths steady, and his eyes on Azula. He keeps his stance rooted, his wits about him, but he lets up on his defensive pose, standing tall with shoulders squared instead. He doesn't run. Nor does he attack her. He takes half a step forward — of course still staying at a considerable distance, but all the same, half a step toward her. ]


...We don't need to keep doing this, Azula. It's over.

[ The war, he means. The revolution. Their fight. From his standpoint, that must be abundantly clear — plainly assuming they're from the same moment in time, as one would... But still, there's something slightly less than familiar about her — something different, changed, but "older" isn't where his mind goes. Something's wrong with his sister. That's all he knows for sure. And that alone is enough to justify not running, not fighting back, nor surrendering. ]
rediscovering: (considering)

[personal profile] rediscovering 2023-05-24 07:56 am (UTC)(link)
Fine.

[ His tone is jagged, trepidatious, but there's still that hint of worry in his gaze. He shifts slightly away, taking another step back as if to walk away, ready to leave as he's told to... but then changes his mind, too, and turns round again for a final characteristic parting comment, half-turned to her still. ]

...I don't want to have to fight you in my dreams, too. What's the point?

[ His voice falls on his ear rather hollow, hearing himself ask that. What's the point? Even in waking life — is there even a point anymore? It's over. They don't need to keep doing this. ]
rediscovering: (the shade of it all)

[personal profile] rediscovering 2023-05-24 08:16 am (UTC)(link)
I know. But I know I chose right. Now it's your choice.

[ Oh, come off it — but he needs the bite of bravado. He can't resist. Pithy as it is, he says it with all the earnestness he can muster through his battered ribs and shoulders, as he turns his back to her fully. Whether that's an act of trust or an act of gall, who can say. However it makes her feel, he's not gonna stick around to find out. She may have spared his life, but she changed her mind once already, so what's stopping her from changing it again? Now or later. She wants him gone in some capacity — she made that much clear. So he'll go. Avoid her like the plague after this, yeah, and go freak out quietly about how to handle this nightmarish development, sure. But he'll at least still speak his truth on the way out. He can't not anymore. ]