[ He stares her down a moment longer, his harsh gaze softening with concern, confusion, caution— no, confusion— no, concern... His ribs hurt, his face hurts, he's surely bruised and bloodied, still holding his own defensive posture — and yet... he finds himself worried about Azula. How is that? He can take a beating like no one's business and he knows it; she knows it. But even if he's certain his life was about to flash before him, knew that Azula seriously had weighed the option of killing him in that moment and erred on that side — it wasn't the first time, nor would it be the last, probably, that she'd threatened to kill him... and then didn't. It doesn't even necessarily register as her "changing her mind," usually, what's more — for all the times they've fought, almost killed each other, tried to kill each other, they never did, and that was almost... concrete. That was their normal, by this point. That's how they play now. "What? No lightning today? Afraid I'll redirect it?" "I'm about to celebrate becoming an only child!" Bickering — like brother and sister. Bantering in battle.
But this, this was different. She clearly changed her mind. She wasn't playing. This was the first time Azula had threatened to kill him, almost did, could have, spared him, and then... cried. Or something like it. She's shaking. Her voice is wavering. She won't even meet his eye. His own breathing is shaky for the pain he's in, but he keeps his breaths steady, and his eyes on Azula. He keeps his stance rooted, his wits about him, but he lets up on his defensive pose, standing tall with shoulders squared instead. He doesn't run. Nor does he attack her. He takes half a step forward — of course still staying at a considerable distance, but all the same, half a step toward her. ]
...We don't need to keep doing this, Azula. It's over.
[ The war, he means. The revolution. Their fight. From his standpoint, that must be abundantly clear — plainly assuming they're from the same moment in time, as one would... But still, there's something slightly less than familiar about her — something different, changed, but "older" isn't where his mind goes. Something's wrong with his sister. That's all he knows for sure. And that alone is enough to justify not running, not fighting back, nor surrendering. ]
She stares at him again, all thought of hiding her shame forgotten, and the look in his eyes-
What did that mean? What was he trying to- Why? Why would he- she'd just- he was still-
"No matter what, you're still my sister."
She clenches her eyes shut, trying to shut out the memory-
"Shut up!"]
"Shut up!"
[...The familiarity of the moment just makes the memory even more intense. The same look of concern in his eyes. The same- "I can help you." meaningless- "I want to help you!" LIES.]
[ His tone is jagged, trepidatious, but there's still that hint of worry in his gaze. He shifts slightly away, taking another step back as if to walk away, ready to leave as he's told to... but then changes his mind, too, and turns round again for a final characteristic parting comment, half-turned to her still. ]
...I don't want to have to fight you in my dreams, too. What's the point?
[ His voice falls on his ear rather hollow, hearing himself ask that. What's the point? Even in waking life — is there even a point anymore? It's over. They don't need to keep doing this. ]
I know. But I know I chose right. Now it's your choice.
[ Oh, come off it — but he needs the bite of bravado. He can't resist. Pithy as it is, he says it with all the earnestness he can muster through his battered ribs and shoulders, as he turns his back to her fully. Whether that's an act of trust or an act of gall, who can say. However it makes her feel, he's not gonna stick around to find out. She may have spared his life, but she changed her mind once already, so what's stopping her from changing it again? Now or later. She wants him gone in some capacity — she made that much clear. So he'll go. Avoid her like the plague after this, yeah, and go freak out quietly about how to handle this nightmarish development, sure. But he'll at least still speak his truth on the way out. He can't not anymore. ]
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But this, this was different. She clearly changed her mind. She wasn't playing. This was the first time Azula had threatened to kill him, almost did, could have, spared him, and then... cried. Or something like it. She's shaking. Her voice is wavering. She won't even meet his eye. His own breathing is shaky for the pain he's in, but he keeps his breaths steady, and his eyes on Azula. He keeps his stance rooted, his wits about him, but he lets up on his defensive pose, standing tall with shoulders squared instead. He doesn't run. Nor does he attack her. He takes half a step forward — of course still staying at a considerable distance, but all the same, half a step toward her. ]
...We don't need to keep doing this, Azula. It's over.
[ The war, he means. The revolution. Their fight. From his standpoint, that must be abundantly clear — plainly assuming they're from the same moment in time, as one would... But still, there's something slightly less than familiar about her — something different, changed, but "older" isn't where his mind goes. Something's wrong with his sister. That's all he knows for sure. And that alone is enough to justify not running, not fighting back, nor surrendering. ]
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She stares at him again, all thought of hiding her shame forgotten, and the look in his eyes-
What did that mean? What was he trying to- Why? Why would he- she'd just- he was still-
"No matter what, you're still my sister."
She clenches her eyes shut, trying to shut out the memory-
"Shut up!"]
"Shut up!"
[...The familiarity of the moment just makes the memory even more intense. The same look of concern in his eyes. The same- "I can help you." meaningless- "I want to help you!" LIES.]
"If it's over, then why are you still here?"
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[ His tone is jagged, trepidatious, but there's still that hint of worry in his gaze. He shifts slightly away, taking another step back as if to walk away, ready to leave as he's told to... but then changes his mind, too, and turns round again for a final characteristic parting comment, half-turned to her still. ]
...I don't want to have to fight you in my dreams, too. What's the point?
[ His voice falls on his ear rather hollow, hearing himself ask that. What's the point? Even in waking life — is there even a point anymore? It's over. They don't need to keep doing this. ]
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And then he stops again. And says that-
There's a spike of rage, a spike of... something else. Something deeper. Something she couldn't name. Without even thinking, she spits-]
You're the one that turned against us. You chose this.
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[ Oh, come off it — but he needs the bite of bravado. He can't resist. Pithy as it is, he says it with all the earnestness he can muster through his battered ribs and shoulders, as he turns his back to her fully. Whether that's an act of trust or an act of gall, who can say. However it makes her feel, he's not gonna stick around to find out. She may have spared his life, but she changed her mind once already, so what's stopping her from changing it again? Now or later. She wants him gone in some capacity — she made that much clear. So he'll go. Avoid her like the plague after this, yeah, and go freak out quietly about how to handle this nightmarish development, sure. But he'll at least still speak his truth on the way out. He can't not anymore. ]